This is me - accept me or reject me, but this is me

I have a way of doing things that I appreciate many people would find bizarre or simply complicated. Everyone is entitled to their opinion so whatever you think of me is up to you. I believe that we are all unique people with personalities that are not only shaped by our genetic make-up but by the personal experiences we have encountered, and still do, in our life journey day by day.

So it goes without say that the way I choose to use my time will be totally different from the way someone else does. Our circumstances in life are different and they lead us to aspire to become who we are. I am a high achiever and I settle for nothing but the best. I like challenges and I never give up, however hard things get. I believe that tough times do not last, but tough people do (I read this in a book) and it has become one of my philosophies of life. I am a type A personality and I am not ashamed of myself. I am not good at failing and the rest is history. I also do not expect everyone to be enthusiastic about the way I present myself or do what I choose to do. So here goes....

Life is what you make it, how you manage those valuable resources that God so graciously gives you. If you are having trouble managing your resources, I suggest that you seek help instead of putting down others who are visibly trying to make a difference.

I am not angry, but I know that no obstacle put in my path will stop me, in Jesus' name. AMEN.

I am aware of my weaknesses as I journey through life and I make every effort to work on what needs improving. I pray for guidance regularly from My Heavenly Father and I know from the bottom of my heart that my prayers get answered one by one.

Thank you, LORD.

First placement over

Last week saw the completion of my first placement. I was very sad to leave but glad to be moving on to other learning environments. I really enjoyed my placement and was overjoyed at the amount of learning I was able to achieve. I gave the ward a 'Thank You' card and some chocolate just to show my appreciation and I got a voucher in return. They really liked me and felt that I worked very hard. To that I agree.

Well, that curtain has officially been drawn so now I am back to class and the going is great. I must admit that I am enjoying myself at every level of my training so far. Everyone has been supportive, some have stretched my patience but I am learning to cope with different personalities. Tolerance and perseverance are in constant use in my vocabulary and in my manner!

I am looking forward to this next term and with God's abiding grace, all will go well.
Cheers!

I bought a book

I bought a book on anger management today.
I don't know why I did, but I bought that book today.
I must have had a good reason so I bought the book today.

Maybe it is because I had been angry the day before.
Maybe I wanted to learn how to deal with this before.
Maybe I should take control of this before.
Maybe I have realised I loose control before.

Before I do something I will regret.
Before I say something I will regret.
Before I loose a friendship I will regret.
Before I loose my respect or my job then I will regret.
Before I taint my reputation, and then I will regret.

So that's why I bought a book on anger management today.

by Pauline Okposi

A helping hand

On Saturday I met a lady at work who told me that she was starting her studies in her quest to be a nurse. She, however, was finding it difficult to understand Psychology and Sociology and was thinking of giving up the course. I could not hide my shock and amazement! I asked her if she was serious about quiting and, honestly, felt sorry for her but also wondered what steps she had taken to solve the problem. Okay, I am the kind of person, who, if things get tough, I get tougher. I am so determined to succeed and I never give up at the first sign of trouble. I suppose that's why I reacted the way that I did. I encouraged her to get help from her tutor because they are there to help, even though they may be busy. I even suggested to her to email her tutor with her questions and to try to stay behind after a lesson to have a concept explained further should she be afraid to ask when everybody else is there.

I suddenly remembered that I had some books to get rid of and that they would be ideal for this lady so I told her that I would get them for her the next day, which I did. When I gave her the books and wished her luck with her studies, she was very shocked and surprised to see me in the first place! I think, she did not expect me to bring the books, she probably thought that I was just saying things. But to her surprise, I meant it.

I often listen to Joyce Meyer on the God channel and she says a lot of encouraging things. Among those was that we should strive to be people of integrity - that is, people who say what they mean and mean what they say. I am such a person. When I say I will do something for someone, that is exactly what I will do and I like to do so as soon as possible so that I do not languish in the excuse that I forgot. I am a person of my words and my actions speak for themselves. Thank God for people who have the ability to inspire others to succeed such as Our Lord, Jesus Christ, President Barack Obama, John Bevere, Joel Osteen...the list is endless.

I intend to be a woman of good works and a person who makes a positive contribution to other people's lives, however minimal. To God be the Glory.....Amen.

A dawn awaits.....

I woke up today to the realization that I was attending one of our sessions at the university for the last time until later on this year. That told me that I had made so much progress already in my training and I felt so happy and mostly, content.

I have worked hard so far and I am still getting there with my studies. I think I did well in my exams and I wanted to share this with someone. But when you tell somebody something you have done and they instead answer you with what you could have done, or remind you of how far you still were from a 100% achievement, what would you make of it?

I do not know.....

I find that sharing your experience with someone is intended to give you an insight into how much progress you are making not for the person to put you down and make you feel like you have not achieved anything. But then again, thinking critically, they could have meant to say something as a motivator not a demotivator.

I had a chat with someone one day and all I did was to point out what they had not done and they got really angry with me and felt that I was being insensitive. It was only later that I realized what I had been doing. From that day onwards, I decided that I would never put people down and that I would speak words and do actions that would make people grow rather than shrink away. I would truthfully give my thoughts on a matter but make sure that I do not tear down some one's sense of self. And I have done that since. So I can recognize when the same thing happens to me and I know when to let it be. (But I must say it is annoying when the only thing someone sees is what you have not done and totally fails to acknowledge what you have - God Bless them!)

Life stinks!

My 1st placement is nearly ending I cannot believe it!

I am enjoying my placement so much that when I looked at my rota, I could not believe that I don't have to book in any more shifts! I am about to finish my first placement! Those weeks have flown by and I just cannot believe it.

It has been a very engaging and exhilarating experience for me. To think that I am leaving so soon makes me upset. I enjoy working at this ward and the learning opportunities have been marvelous. Not a day passes by without me learning something new. I am so grateful to everybody who has helped me in whatever capacity. I will surely miss them. The thing is that I have to move on to other areas so that I can continue to learn and expand my knowledge if I am to be a well-rounded general nurse! I am looking forward to my next semester and all being well, it should be even more exciting.

Got to go now, my cooking awaits me.
Cheers...