The brain is a powerful organ - ofcourse, it controls the body!
I have decided that I will maintain peace in my mind amidst all the turmoil. Sometimes, though, fear sets in especially when I listen to and believe a lot of the negativity around me. But I choose a positive approach because that is what will propel me forward.
I have an exam soon and I have to keep my cool, so God please I am asking you to give my intellect a much-needed boost; my understanding that kick-start that gets my thinking in motion. Amen.
Good luck to all those anticipating a good grade in forthcoming exams!
Au revoir!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Long long time
It's been long since I posted something; I did not forget. Time goes so quickly sometimes I wonder how to catch it. I have been facing some challenges that I cannot even understand. These issues have taken up a rather large share of space in my brain that they gave my studies only a small portion to deal with and one can only imagine how difficult this has been.
I have had to deal with life and death issues and the shocking thing is that neither chooses when to come. One day all is well, then the next - boom! A life-changing event has occurred that needs your immediate attention. I had to move house in the midst of all this so judging by the LARS scale, one can only imagine how high my stress levels have been.
Still, life goes on as each challenge comes and goes. But I must admit its not been touch and go. I have been pushed, pulled, stretched, squashed, ruffled...name it!
But guess what? I am still here.
Only the strong survive. Prayer and fasting increased my perseverance (for those who believe in God, this works).
Have a good week.
I have had to deal with life and death issues and the shocking thing is that neither chooses when to come. One day all is well, then the next - boom! A life-changing event has occurred that needs your immediate attention. I had to move house in the midst of all this so judging by the LARS scale, one can only imagine how high my stress levels have been.
Still, life goes on as each challenge comes and goes. But I must admit its not been touch and go. I have been pushed, pulled, stretched, squashed, ruffled...name it!
But guess what? I am still here.
Only the strong survive. Prayer and fasting increased my perseverance (for those who believe in God, this works).
Have a good week.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
This week
This week is so much better than the last couple of weeks. Something was really wrong then but things seem resolved now for the better. I am getting used to this year in uni and there is no way I am quitting...not by a long shot!
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going, it's called taking the bull by the horns. So, second year....here I come!
When the going gets tough, the tough gets going, it's called taking the bull by the horns. So, second year....here I come!
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Make a promise only if you can keep it, otherwise, shut up!
Something else, whenever I promise to do something for someone, I make sure I do it even if it is late. And if I cannot, I don't and explain why.
Recently, someone promised to do something for me. I told this person my position on the matter and the response was rather promising. I figured that instead of going round in circles, I should just call a spade a spade, which I did. The consequences, were shocking. First, no response for what seemed like eternity. Secondly, a half-hearted response came which was not what I had expected bearing in mind that the opposite was promised. I was at a loss of words and felt like I was being a burden. Thirdly, I decided to opt out and leave things as they were pre-promise.
Fact - someone raised my hopes and dashed them soon after.
Fact - I wonder if I will ever ask for a favour again.
Fact - One knock down should not be the determining factor for every such opportunity in the future.
Fact - I probably will put on a brave shield and ask for help but this time with the remote expectation that help may not arrive so that I am not so disappointed when this eventually does happen.
Fact - I am an optimist, not a pessimist so surely there must be a reason why things are as they are (that is what I would like to believe).
Fact - I am down but not out!
Recently, someone promised to do something for me. I told this person my position on the matter and the response was rather promising. I figured that instead of going round in circles, I should just call a spade a spade, which I did. The consequences, were shocking. First, no response for what seemed like eternity. Secondly, a half-hearted response came which was not what I had expected bearing in mind that the opposite was promised. I was at a loss of words and felt like I was being a burden. Thirdly, I decided to opt out and leave things as they were pre-promise.
Fact - someone raised my hopes and dashed them soon after.
Fact - I wonder if I will ever ask for a favour again.
Fact - One knock down should not be the determining factor for every such opportunity in the future.
Fact - I probably will put on a brave shield and ask for help but this time with the remote expectation that help may not arrive so that I am not so disappointed when this eventually does happen.
Fact - I am an optimist, not a pessimist so surely there must be a reason why things are as they are (that is what I would like to believe).
Fact - I am down but not out!
2nd year
This year started and I feel like dropping out. It is full of so many things going on sometimes I wonder which way to go. As if all the pressure is not enough, I have been allocated a placement to an area that I cannot find on the map!
Everything seems to be getting worse by the day and even if I try to cheer myself up, looks like something negative is waiting round the corner to kill my lifted spirit. It's like having an invisible battle only you cannot see the opponent. I know people go through a rough patch sometimes in thier life but this one seems to be endless. It's making me lose my sparkle and my motivation is at an all-time low.
Seeking assistance is like throwing blows in the air because everyone seems to have or suddenly create a reason why they cannot assist. I am lost for options and my words seem to crumble to pieces. I think my mood has changed a lot and I feel that I have hit rock bottom real hard. My bum hurts from that huge fall I recently had and my head is constantly throbbing from what, I don't know.
At the moment, everything seems a blur. It's like trying to find your way on a path laced with cobwebs from top to bottom, looking like cotton wool streaks longer than I can imagine. The atmosphere is eerie with a ghost-like silence and the cold and clammy weather is not helping. It feels like I am playing a part for which I have been made up, almost like scenes from a zombie movie!
It doesn't feel like me at all. I want out of this misery, I am tired of being tired. At the moment a lot of things are irritating me. A critical analysis shows me that my coping strategies are getting rusty so I need to polish my act. But how? Someone help me!
Everything seems to be getting worse by the day and even if I try to cheer myself up, looks like something negative is waiting round the corner to kill my lifted spirit. It's like having an invisible battle only you cannot see the opponent. I know people go through a rough patch sometimes in thier life but this one seems to be endless. It's making me lose my sparkle and my motivation is at an all-time low.
Seeking assistance is like throwing blows in the air because everyone seems to have or suddenly create a reason why they cannot assist. I am lost for options and my words seem to crumble to pieces. I think my mood has changed a lot and I feel that I have hit rock bottom real hard. My bum hurts from that huge fall I recently had and my head is constantly throbbing from what, I don't know.
At the moment, everything seems a blur. It's like trying to find your way on a path laced with cobwebs from top to bottom, looking like cotton wool streaks longer than I can imagine. The atmosphere is eerie with a ghost-like silence and the cold and clammy weather is not helping. It feels like I am playing a part for which I have been made up, almost like scenes from a zombie movie!
It doesn't feel like me at all. I want out of this misery, I am tired of being tired. At the moment a lot of things are irritating me. A critical analysis shows me that my coping strategies are getting rusty so I need to polish my act. But how? Someone help me!
Monday, July 27, 2009
A huge thank you!
My first year is soon coming to an end. It has been a very challenging year, not only academically but in every aspect of my life that I can think of.
Times have been tough, times have been good, times have also been exciting.
It has been a time of mixed emotions which have all been welcome because the impact has made me grow in ways I could not have imagined.
I must say that sometimes I felt like I could not cope, like 'what's the use?'
But immediately after, my courage would push me back in the driving seat, set my gears on and get me in motion. I am glad I listened to reason because I am seeing the fruits of my labour.
Thank you to all those people who helped me along the way, be it by positive feedback or negative criticisms. Thank you to those who taught me this academic year, your contribution to my knowledge is much appreciated.
Thank you to my heavenly Father for making everything possible according to His promise in the Holy Bible. I look forward to the next year and with my faith intact, I know that I will survive.
Times have been tough, times have been good, times have also been exciting.
It has been a time of mixed emotions which have all been welcome because the impact has made me grow in ways I could not have imagined.
I must say that sometimes I felt like I could not cope, like 'what's the use?'
But immediately after, my courage would push me back in the driving seat, set my gears on and get me in motion. I am glad I listened to reason because I am seeing the fruits of my labour.
Thank you to all those people who helped me along the way, be it by positive feedback or negative criticisms. Thank you to those who taught me this academic year, your contribution to my knowledge is much appreciated.
Thank you to my heavenly Father for making everything possible according to His promise in the Holy Bible. I look forward to the next year and with my faith intact, I know that I will survive.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
I cannot believe it!
The year began a year ago and now it is coming to an end. My placements and lectures have been great and the learning awesome. Exams have been a welcome challenge as has been other assignments that I have done. I am so happy that I can see the end of this tunnel approaching. It's been worth all the time I invested in it and I am so looking forward to the next one.
For all of us who have successfully completed this leg of our journey all I can say is congratulations and see you next year!
To my lecturers, tutors and other members of staff who have helped me in various ways, thank you very much and see you next time round.
Enjoy the long break! Cheers!
For all of us who have successfully completed this leg of our journey all I can say is congratulations and see you next year!
To my lecturers, tutors and other members of staff who have helped me in various ways, thank you very much and see you next time round.
Enjoy the long break! Cheers!
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